Monday, June 28, 2010

sux of being left behind part 2

when i was in my secondary finals..i was so wild and trying to be free of myself to join people from outsiders..i was so social..meeting many kinds of people..some of them take drugs,marjuana,alcohol,ice and alot of things..ive try all of it..but non of those im addicted to..im just addicted to cigaratte and alcohol..people think iam a very wild child..but im guess even thoe im will...i never talk about people..im just keep for myself..event my family dosent make any noise.they know what iam doin..but i not so addicted too much with it..im still doing my part as a student and as a son in the family.to me this was a new beginning of a life of a teenagers.growing up is so damn challenging..but this is what im trying to shared with all.finals was around the corner,preparation like hell..reading books..do some test and never ever stop goin to my tuition class..well there so many things i need to catch up..will try to write it more..

sux of being left behind part 1

life sometimes aint gonna be easier as it sapose to be,maybe because different people got different thinking in their life's.most of life is more complicated with alot of challenging stuff and test that been written from god.well i didnt try to expect all this thing come to me in like a wind.since my childhood.people never look at me.they think im just a child who can't do things and no specialities.my mom and my late date understand me alot.i grew up with a very very tough life.sadness around me and painfull responsability.infact i was sick since my age was 6years old..the doctor find out i got hole on my heart.so since i was in primary school..the teachers never really like me because i can't do play rough sports and do heavy things just because im sick.our family last time not really got alot of money to send me to the specialist or do operation.and even hard to buy medicine.i know my life is difficult..but so far iam thank to god.and i never expect it for more..to me im just wanna be normal,healthy and try to make friends..and to make friends to accept me for who iam..even in secondary school im try to fit in with all the student with different classes.but yet again,it's more tougher..i was in the sciences class but all around me,my class mate look at me like i wasn't fit to be around them..so end up i make friends with litreture classes..even know they all not so clever but they all got good hearts and friendly.years passing by..and my finals is coming..i became so naughty and mean.but still i never loose my education..just some teachers they dont like me..maybe because of my attitude.but so far people do like my attitude..to me even i very bad bad boy in school im still top student in education.so far i never make myself fail in exam.but i never like to show off things to people.i rather to keep it by my own.well the story never stop here..but i will write again soon.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

FEARLESS BY TAYLOR SWIFT


There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot, yeah

We're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Well, you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake, I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'
It's fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Saturday, June 26, 2010

miss them alot..my besties..2009




pris,alicia,patricia,rachel and 3 more of them..

LALA LALA..







lala snap snap...wacky shoots....hahaha...

chill with mt BESTIES and friends before OPERATION







ME AND MY CLOSE FRIENDS..IN KL&JB




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WITH MY BESTIES..ALICIA AND PRISXILLIA..miss them we all watch movie..

PIXIE LOTT - TURN IT UP


coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall. We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story-y and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, might get too much, but I gotta let it be.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.

'coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
it ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So they'll be cheating, be decieving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So we'll be grown ups, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine (fiiiine).
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time (tiiiime).
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
and though, my heart will break, a new me will fill the space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

the most memorable day in my life 07/06/10









01/06/10
JB - KL

its a hecthic and kind of rush when last minute packing and didnt realise that tommorrow is my last appointment with my doctor before my operation day.i was ready on that time is just that my sister tought that the appointment was on wed..but actually the appointment was on tuesday.shame all got wrong infomation..missunderstanding and mess up..but overall things goin smooth.while we both on our way to KL.alot of chatting about my operation.well we all know my operation is kind of serious case.and its not a joke.but as for me,the feeling of goin for the operation wasn't there at all..i didnt feel nervous,i didnt prepare anything.even i pray like once in a day..well to me it up to god to handle this..if i could make it "thank god" if i couldn't maybe its a faith.

02/06/10 - 05/06/10
KL(IJN hospital)
waiting for the day for the operation,well my sister make a full registration for me.i got a ward for myself..it was boring.nothing to do.got wi-fi,reading magazines and eating snacks.they do gave a good servis..food and drinks.and some of friends come over and my love ones too..well thats all in the ward.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Recover from bad fever..

THUSRDAy:after arrived in JB from KL,i was a little bit uncomftable with my body and throat..me and my sister stop for while at the cafe near by not far from her house..we both eat for dinner.i takin just a normal meal and a vegetable sup.abit of black papper but overall the sup very nice.i finish all the food and still remember to take my medicine.as been told and advice from my sister.after finish all the food we went back.once i reach i feel my body abit weak,and i feel that my throat very dry.erm maybe because of the air-coin i guess.but in the end it getting worse.i take alot of warm water to reduce the pain.but it dosen't work at all.until my tempeture goin very high.so my mum ask me to take panadol to make me feel relief.but end up the next day my fever getting worse.infact i lost my voice and i cant even swallow anything..especially food.so immidently i rush to the family clinic near by.the doctor gave me alot of medicine,once i arrived home i took all the medicine and cover myself with a warm blanket to make myself sleep and rest.after awhile my fever turns down.but my throat was still the same.painfull and dry.i can't make myself sleep..because of my throat and the cough..i told my mum that the medicine dosen't work at all..so the next day i rush to the poly-clinic near by.i told the doctor i need the strong medicine that can cure the pain.infact i told the doctor that i have 4days left for my OPERATION.so the doctor understand everything,so i went back home.before i took my medicine i have to take some food.atleast i wont feel hungry.so on that day i took 4 times of my medicine,and sleep like a baby.the next day as the result,my sore throat fully recover,just left a few cough.but still i never stop taking the medicine.because i need to be in a good health on the OPERATION day on wednesday.i realize that,last week i took too much of cold drinks and not enough of rest.so next time i have to take care of my health.and i will make sure i sleep on time..

Saturday, May 22, 2010

king of leon(need somebody)


I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see

A new HAIRstyle...I kind like HER hair...




just adore the hair..but i will make it short...actually i wanna cut the same pattern...but not the colour..

STUPID IN LOVE by RIHANNA(those words are so meaningfull)


Stupid in love
Oh
Stupid in love

Let me tell you something
Never have I ever
Been a size 10
In my whole life
I left the engine running
I just came to see
What you would do if I
Gave you a chance
To make things right

So I made it
Even though Katy
Told me this would be nothing
But a waste of time
And she was right

Dont understand it
Blood on your hands
And still you insist
On repeatedly trying
To tell me lies
And I just don't know why


This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like Im stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

My new nickname
Is you idiot
(Such an idiot)
Thats what my friends
Are calling me when
They see me yelling
Into my
Phone

They tell me let go
He is not the one
I thought I saw your potential
Guess thats what made me dumb
He don't want it
Not like you want it
Scheming and cheating
Oh girl, why do you
Waste your time
You know he aint right

Telling me this
I don't wanna listen
But you insist
On repeatedly trying
To tell me lies
And I just don't know why

This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like I'm stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

Trying to make this work
But you act like a jerk
Silly of me to keep
Holding on
But the dunce cap is off
You don't know what you lost
And you wont realize
Till I'm gone, gone, gone
That I was the one
Which one of us
Is really done

Ooh
No
No
No no
I'm not stupid in love

This is stupid
I'm not stupid
Dont talk to me
Like I'm stupid
I still love you
But I just cant do this
I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid

I may be dumb but
I'm not stupid
In love

SO FAKE DRAMA

Actually,this story was happen after my 2nd time i admitted to the hospital in the month of march,if i can recall..so i found this one guy he know me well from a friend of mine.so my friend gave him my FACEBOOK profile and ask him to add me on his friendlist,infact my friend told him some interesting fact about me.well im kindly suprised that he really did add me on that night.actually i just want him to be as a friend.we had a small conversation on the phone and FACEBOOK.so far i thought he was a very nice and kind person to be friend with.we been friends after that,so call close friends.But to me just a normal friendship not more then that.so he always kept promise,always meet me up even he was very busy or he was very tired after his duty.call me everyday,sms me with sweet words.Buy me this buy me that.i even told him that i dont want all this thing,and i also told him that he help me so much and i will repay all that.because in this case i dont really like people gave to much help on me.but i think after 2months after that,the person who is a friend was totaly out of his mind.and i really prove him wrong that he was a nice person.actually he's planning for something.He was so called got a crush on me and fall deeply with his feeling towards me.And ever since he was a friend to me,he gave everything with money and alot of things just to win my heart on him.I was so shock and speechless with all the things that he's trying to do..because i don't really have those feeling towards him.And i really dont want his money or item that he bought for me.Because to me i really not into all this shit just to win my heart or fall in love to him..sorry im not like that person.So one day he sms me with his sweet words and telling me that he miss me and yet again he like waiting for my respond.well i admit to him that i not really ready for this kind of thing and infact i dont have those feeling towards him.infact i told him that im serious and sincerely that i really not interested to start a relationship with him.i know that he feel the pain.But i dont wanna lie to him..so i told everything the truth.so its clear that we just friends.but i guess he just putting his high hopes on me,until he feels that he just waste him time hoping for something that he didnt get.from his voice he said im ok,but from the inside i think his totaly heart pain.After a few weeks we just be as a normal friends..but he's totaly change,we meet up not everyday,he always busy with his work,well of cause i understand he's working..and he didnt show up when i call or ask him for a help.but everyday i saw his wallpost on his FACEBOOK with sad words and always telling him self love is pain..i guess this kind of thing he need to think for him self..i do ask one of his friends why he so easily to fall in love with people that he didnt know well,his friend said that he just a naive person and so decent..he just need to be loved..but if the person got feeling toward him if dont shall he make up his mind.?his friend also dont know how to explain to him..she even advice him alot of times..but he believes that he got too much of his confident to approch people with his money but yet again he will end up heart broken.well as for me i also dont know how to said.so its already 3months 23days,he became more quite and trying to avoiding me.well i dont really like that.i do meet him last week at his function at this shopping centere,on that time i was with my besties..one thing about him.he dont like to mix around with my friends.so call he's racist.and he always force me to hangout with his friends only.well that one i dont really like it.so i drop by his function event and said hi to him..but his face look un happy and shown that i not welcome..so he said that later he will meet me after his duty.but soon i received his message that he can't meet me because he got gathering with his friends..so i never force him..and i didnt reply because 0 credit.i guess he feel that he just dont want to be friends of me anymore.but to me i dont even care.and i dont take it seriously with this kind of problem,so far i be friends with everyone.and im not the choosing type of person.well this story is a true story and dont easily put on high hope for something that you are hoping so badly,if you got it good for you..but if you dont is just make yourself feel that you lose everything..and it just kills you from the inside..=END=

PARTY IN THE USA...ACID EVENT.


"PARTY IN THE USA"(ACID SLUMBER PARTY pillow talk)

This party actually meant for fun activities,singing,acting,live shows like youtube,drinking,we got foods and playing games.its all about ACID..and its me of coz.so i will gather all of my friends who under VVIP list to come join the fun under the 5 star hotel.one day gathering..how's that for a slumber party of the year..so this party is the 1st party of all..that been held in KUALA LUMPUR.and i will be SINGAPORE soon..will gave all the updates and respond on my blogs..and all the photo on my blog...

Picnic with my besties....






picnic with my besties,chill and hangout with my besties in spore..i miss them alot..evenoe we now in different places...we do keep intouch..pris,alicia and zilla...miss them...XOXO

Once Upon A time..





this picture been taken on new year 2010,at my home town in ChUa ChU KaNg,singapore...on that time i was in shape..workout 7days a week....and im busy with working...and im feeling the mood

Saturday, January 30, 2010

i want this bag...!!!!!!!!louis vuitton 2010 limited edition bag




gosh i really like this bag..so colourfull...the new collection from LOUIS VUITTON 2010 limited edition spring/summer bags with accessories fox tail key chain..still waiting for chances to grab it..log on www.louisvuitton.com or blog www.bagaholicboy.com to find more info about this bag.

day out with my besties..2010





a new begining new life



just wanna say that now these days life so far has been so tough for me,trou out of year my life has been so cheer with up and down.well not everyday u have to be happy..it depents in what kind of situation u were..ermm....its hard to describe it..because no one understand.sometimes i do feel stress with my life now..i tought that my life should be fine in 2010.well there been alot of difficulities out there..that i have to be prepare for the worse.i'm still waiting for my wonderfull life back to normal as before.now these days its hard for me to sleep well,seldom hangouts with my besties,more be alone and eat alot of food that i worried about my health.well i need to motivate my life but sometimes i feel lazy to do so..oh my god what a horrible life..well i have to really really have to work hard for myself.i need to throw away all the past..and start thinking abt my future.being alone sometimes is very tough.not easy and i can't depending with anyone unless with my self..because not 100% my friend will always beside me..sometimes they have their own problems to..i have to understand about other people...well hope i will achieve to be more better..i just wanna be comfortable with my life and be happy thats all..hope god will listen with all my prayers..

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

2010 Louis Vuitton s/s collection ads..





log on to www.louisvuitton.com for more info.