Monday, June 28, 2010

sux of being left behind part 2

when i was in my secondary finals..i was so wild and trying to be free of myself to join people from outsiders..i was so social..meeting many kinds of people..some of them take drugs,marjuana,alcohol,ice and alot of things..ive try all of it..but non of those im addicted to..im just addicted to cigaratte and alcohol..people think iam a very wild child..but im guess even thoe im will...i never talk about people..im just keep for myself..event my family dosent make any noise.they know what iam doin..but i not so addicted too much with it..im still doing my part as a student and as a son in the family.to me this was a new beginning of a life of a teenagers.growing up is so damn challenging..but this is what im trying to shared with all.finals was around the corner,preparation like hell..reading books..do some test and never ever stop goin to my tuition class..well there so many things i need to catch up..will try to write it more..

sux of being left behind part 1

life sometimes aint gonna be easier as it sapose to be,maybe because different people got different thinking in their life's.most of life is more complicated with alot of challenging stuff and test that been written from god.well i didnt try to expect all this thing come to me in like a wind.since my childhood.people never look at me.they think im just a child who can't do things and no specialities.my mom and my late date understand me alot.i grew up with a very very tough life.sadness around me and painfull responsability.infact i was sick since my age was 6years old..the doctor find out i got hole on my heart.so since i was in primary school..the teachers never really like me because i can't do play rough sports and do heavy things just because im sick.our family last time not really got alot of money to send me to the specialist or do operation.and even hard to buy medicine.i know my life is difficult..but so far iam thank to god.and i never expect it for more..to me im just wanna be normal,healthy and try to make friends..and to make friends to accept me for who iam..even in secondary school im try to fit in with all the student with different classes.but yet again,it's more tougher..i was in the sciences class but all around me,my class mate look at me like i wasn't fit to be around them..so end up i make friends with litreture classes..even know they all not so clever but they all got good hearts and friendly.years passing by..and my finals is coming..i became so naughty and mean.but still i never loose my education..just some teachers they dont like me..maybe because of my attitude.but so far people do like my attitude..to me even i very bad bad boy in school im still top student in education.so far i never make myself fail in exam.but i never like to show off things to people.i rather to keep it by my own.well the story never stop here..but i will write again soon.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

FEARLESS BY TAYLOR SWIFT


There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rained
There's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the car
And you know I wanna ask you to dance right there
In the middle of the parking lot, yeah

We're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you know
I'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absent-mindedly makin' me want you

And I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Well, you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake, I'm not usually this way
But you pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'
It's fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

'Cause I don't know how it gets better than this
You take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearless
And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
In a storm in my best dress, fearless

Saturday, June 26, 2010

miss them alot..my besties..2009




pris,alicia,patricia,rachel and 3 more of them..

LALA LALA..







lala snap snap...wacky shoots....hahaha...

chill with mt BESTIES and friends before OPERATION







ME AND MY CLOSE FRIENDS..IN KL&JB




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WITH MY BESTIES..ALICIA AND PRISXILLIA..miss them we all watch movie..

PIXIE LOTT - TURN IT UP


coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall. We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Baby, its over, we both know, lets go forward.
I love you, but in a different way, I love you, forever.
Now that we've come to the end of a story-y and I know that it's gonna be hard for me.
Might hurt some, might get too much, but I gotta let it be.
As the world turns around and we go different places, new things, new dreams, new faces.
Wanna shake up, when we break up, but we keep our memories.

'coz I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Baby, it's better, and I want you, to be happy.
Sometimes people find that it's so hard just to say goodbye.
it ain't easy the more and the more you try.
So they'll be cheating, be decieving, but not me and my boy.
We understand that we're friends and it just ain't working, no point in the constant fighting.
So we'll be grown ups, for a minute, and admit that we're just not in it.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.

Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

I might lose my mind for a while, but I'll be fine (fiiiine).
Have you heard there's this thing that heals, and it's called time (tiiiime).
Clock can tick away, happy will fall in place.
and though, my heart will break, a new me will fill the space.

I know you can't stay, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the fall.
We had our time, baby, so I won't be waiting, anticipating for the call.
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".
Turn it up, turn it up for the people that say "we're moving on and we'll be okay".

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

the most memorable day in my life 07/06/10









01/06/10
JB - KL

its a hecthic and kind of rush when last minute packing and didnt realise that tommorrow is my last appointment with my doctor before my operation day.i was ready on that time is just that my sister tought that the appointment was on wed..but actually the appointment was on tuesday.shame all got wrong infomation..missunderstanding and mess up..but overall things goin smooth.while we both on our way to KL.alot of chatting about my operation.well we all know my operation is kind of serious case.and its not a joke.but as for me,the feeling of goin for the operation wasn't there at all..i didnt feel nervous,i didnt prepare anything.even i pray like once in a day..well to me it up to god to handle this..if i could make it "thank god" if i couldn't maybe its a faith.

02/06/10 - 05/06/10
KL(IJN hospital)
waiting for the day for the operation,well my sister make a full registration for me.i got a ward for myself..it was boring.nothing to do.got wi-fi,reading magazines and eating snacks.they do gave a good servis..food and drinks.and some of friends come over and my love ones too..well thats all in the ward.